What's standing between you and what you want is always a set of limiting beliefs, a story we create about why the world is the way it is. This story can be changed, with awareness and dedication, often times in an instant. Our feelings are not the product of our environment, but a product of our consciousness. Regardless of our circumstances, we create our feelings by the meaning we assign to things.
What moves us in life is pain and pleasure. Often times people wait until the pain is big enough in order to make the change. I urge you to seek harmony, ease and passion in your life before you hit rock bottom. You are a powerful creator, and you can witness the fruits of that creation once you connect with your inner resources and wisdom. The contribution you can then make to your relationship, to your family, to your community will be a thousand-fold, and so will be your fulfillment and a sense of deep meaning in life.